grantmeserenity asked: i love your blog it's so inspiring... lol i just started following christian blogs, dont ask why ahah, but im glad i found yours!
Waaah! this is so overwhelming, just to know that my blog has inspired someone, even if its a single soul, is like AWESOME! Actually, when I started, I also followed random blogs and then shifted to christian blogs. This is no coincidence, God has a plan! Thank you for following!
davidmhur asked: Awesome blog. God Bless.
Thanks! The glory is to God. Your blog is awesome too. Spread God’s word! :))) God bless you too!
So I was invited to a birthday party (actually there was no formal invitation but since we’re sisters/brothers in faith and relationship, a text is enough) and it took me like forever (more than an hour) just to get dressed. Yes, a usual girl problem, of course there was plenty to wear but it just din’t felt right to wear on that certain occasion where I am not the one to be celebrated for and also its a kind of reunion for us, high school friends.
I was asking my cousin if it was okay, what I’m wearing (a casual cat-printed dress), I got an O.K. but I just wasn’t feeling like wearing a dress (boyish problems). Then from that I change into 5 o 6 more outfit combinations (was tiring as I may say). I decided to wear denim shorts, no not short shorts, paired with a baggy top and a hoodie. It just didn’t felt right, again, because it was already 7 pm and going out like that can give me the attention I don’t want and the intention that might cause other to sin. Then I changed again.
Maybe out of frustration my cousin said. "Why did you changed?! I thought you want to look sexy? Isn’t that why you are dieting to show your sexiness?". I was dumbfounded with her question.
To end the story, I FINALLY found a pair of an old trusty pair of jeans ( because all that fit me are in the laundry) and paired it to my favorite stripped long sleeves since it was cold outside. I got a “Its simple” comment from her, which I was glad to hear. The celebration was fun not because of what we wore or what our bodies’ fit were, but because we see the ‘beauty’ of each other’s uniqueness.
*A photo from my sister in Christ, Kaye’s birthday last night, the pretty Japanese-looking-girl wearing eyeglasses.
1 Peter 3:3-4 ESV
Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.
Di pala tayo dapat naiinis at nag-iisip ng negative about Love kapag nakakakita tayo ng relationships na nagfe-fail or nag-crumble, dapat palang umasa pa tayo lalo. Na God will provide the best and will take care of the rest as long as we surrender everything to HIM.
1 Corinthians 13
7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails.
"Relationships may fail or end, but LOVE NEVER DOES, GOD NEVER WILL."”
So you think you’re great? Then think again. This blog entry will be my first after months of my THESIS coaster ride (one hella ride that is). Well certainly this is not a story about successfully finishing it, cause it did not happen.
Everyone was on the verge of their limits, everyone desperate to push themselves, to motivate the hell out of them, including me so as to speak for my self. There was even a time that I asked myself, "What am I doing? Do I really need this? What are you throwing at me Life?’. But really, before those questions popped out, I already knew the answers, the purpose of doing this. My last/and only resort was to pray. It is when I can tell someone everything without judgment.
I remembered in the first half of my thesis year that I even brought a white board to remind me of things . There I wrote the phrase "GOD GLORIFYING THESIS" which was my constant reminder and prayer that I’m doing this for Him. I prayed for wisdom, knowledge, guidance, and strength for all this. I even promised that I will never sacrifice any service for any deadlines and that He will be my priority. Blessed enough, I passed the first stage.
By that time I became too faithful. Not of God’s grace and mercy but by my own ability. Hard truth, I became too comfortable that I started late with my work, took granted the time, and started to believe 'my own greatness'. Worst was the promise/deal I had made with Him, was slowly forgotten. I rarely attended services, deadlines began to pile up, my confidence turned into anxiousness, I even felt being compelled to pray (God forgive me for that)!
When you vow a vow to God, do not delay paying it, for he has no pleasure in fools. Pay what you vow. It is better that you should not vow than that you should vow and not pay.
Like every other great conqueror, there came my great fall. It was the day of final submission and I still wasn’t done! Everyone was like printing their final boards or totally done with everything and I was there editing my outputs. I felt too vulnerable, faithless, like anything can break me into pieces, no, into dust. And yes I did cried (was not a good sight), that moment when someone asked me if I was okay. I never knew how a simple phrase, actually a common phrase could break me. All I felt that moment was I failed. I, only me, myself, not anyone nor God failed me. It was all because of me. I failed everyone.
YET my GOD is a merciful and graceful one. He placed loving, concerned, and selfless classmates and friends around me. They saw me (and probably pitied me„haha) and asked to help, with everything while I was trying to compose myself. Yes, I was able to pass my final boards that day on due time. That really was something only God’s miracle can do, maybe not the kind of bringing-the-dead-back-alive-miracle but for me it was a miracle.
Although I was able to submit my final boards, something happened, in a nutshell, I was ruled out of the ride for thesis deliberations this semester along with other students. It was disappointing. When I thought I was almost there but maybe God also saw that I wasn’t ready for it. In my heart after submitting my boards, I was even more anxious of what will my deliberation result would be, I wasn’t confident of my own work.
Ephesians 2:8-9 ESV
For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
So I think God is giving me the time to prepare and make something that will truly glorify and prove not my greatness but of my GOD.
Colossians 3:23 ESV
Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men,
I just had to share this. As this humbling event will forever be my reminder that I can plan my destiny, can do things to fulfill my dreams, work for accomplishments but only Him can take me there and I’m just waiting for that. :)
Proverbs 16:9 ESV
The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.